i've been sitting here writing this, forcing myself to be vulnerable with anyone who takes the time to read this, because i pray maybe you can learn from my mistakes. maybe in some way i can save you from the same heartache. i'm currently listening to my fallback song, "hands on deck" by waking ashland.
all hands on deck, don't abandon the ship, you'll never know what it could have been.
as i regularly have to, i am currently learning to put my everything in christ alone. i repeatedly find someone or something to throw my all into, and each time, it falls away. but in all honestly, i am so wrong. i know for a fact the only thing that deserves that much time and energy is my jesus christ. but why do i never learn?
and i need a miracle to save me from this, and i need the angels to all pray for me- i can't believe you.
so pray for me. rather, pray with me- because i know i'm not the only one who struggles with this. i'm finally understanding that this isn't one or two prayers. not even one or two months/years of working on a particular issue. this is about daily giving up my life to the one who truly deserves it.
and shes turning pages i'm not making for her, and shes painting pictures, without me in mind- i can't believe you.
liv,
chandler.
hands on deck, by waking ashland.
